and repeat

I'm not good at handling unexpected things that come my way.  I get stressed out.  I get defensive.  I yell when I shouldn't and I'm often way too much on edge.  I blame people for my stress, for getting defensive, for yelling.  I'm just not good at handling unexpected surprises.

The other week my husband's parents and my husband's grand-parents stopped by our house to eat dinner.  I got about an hour's notice.  I didn't plan on them coming.  The house wasn't as clean as I wanted it.  I didn't have a dinner planned.  I didn't know if they were staying, if Andrew was taking them home, if, if, if, etc.

While nearing a hysterical level on the phone with Andrew, he made me stop and repeat after him.  I felt kinda dumb, but it actually helped.

He said; "God is in control of my life."

"God is in control of my life," I grumbled back.

"And I can not plan for everything."

"And I can not plan for everything," I sighed into the phone.

Now I'm sitting here typing this while on hold for the IRS.  We filed an extension to take care of student loan debt and now that we are finally ready to get back our long awaited tax return, it got sent back to us.

Seems someone already filed a tax return with my social security number.


"God is in control of my life, and I can't plan for everything."


and repeat ...