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Wednesday, November 17, 2010

Blindsided

He could have used a different approach.  No, he should have used a different approach.

I didn't see it coming.  I walked right into a fight I didn't expect.  I entered the ring when I didn't really want to.

The first punch hit me in the gut.  It took my breathe away, but left me standing.

The second punch hit me in the head; the knock-out shot.  The game winner was theirs.

I was out for the count.

(and I'm talking about verbal punches here people, not punches from the fist)


I didn't expect it, and I can't really say it here because ... well just because.  It hurts, it stings, and worse I'm not even sure he knows how much.  I struggle to keep the tears from escaping my heavy eyes.  I need to face this a different way.

I need to accept.  I need to embrace.  I need to find balance; it's all about the balance.

but it still stung

and I still think he could have come about it a different way.

Confused (me too) ... email me.  Don't need to know the details ... pray for me.  Pray for acceptance.  Pray for understanding.  Pray for peace.  Pray for the strength to embrace and carry on.

I almost hit the X.  I almost found the delete.  But I will not cower.  I will not lay down and be trampled.  I will find my balance, and I will learn from this and move on.  Because that's what life is.  You make mistakes and then you live to not repeat it.

I may have been blindsided (and not like the movie), but I will move on.  I pray I can move on.

Wait.  Don't leave yet.  I don't want you to be sad when you leave me.  So, here are some adorable pictures of my kids in the bathtub:

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8 comments:

  1. I don't like the sound of this... praying. :/

    And, you've got the cutest bathtub ever.

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  2. you absolutely can move on. take what you can from the experience, and make it work for you.

    keeping you in my thoughts.

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  3. Glad you didn't push the delete. . .sometimes just writing it down and sharing is the first step to peace. So many times I have almost deleted too. . .but!

    Praying for you.

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  4. I am so sorry. I am praying for you and I will email you. Take care. The pics are beautiful

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  5. Oh know.. I hope all is well.. If you need anything let me know.. Hugs to you..

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  6. Prayers for whatever it is, it's not my place to know, but I can pray! And... love the pics!

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  7. Oh, Christy, I'm sorry to hear you were (verbally) attacked like that. I know the feeling, it's not something I would ever wish on anyone. :( Prayers for you, that things get straightened out, and for him, that he learns not to trample on people's feelings and pride.

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